struggling to keep going

Hi everyone so it's been a while and very hectic so since my last post not much has been happening due to the COVID 19 virus hope your all staying safe sadly I have been having really big issues with infections since January I have had 25 infections UTIs and kidney infections I have had 27 lots of antibiotics and hospital admissions and right no I am struggling so much to keep going infection after infection is so draining I am struggling to keep going and just to make it through the day is ridiculously hard but I am trying now with infections I seem to pass out get extremely weak cant to eat my body is really under so much pressure and when you have a infection after infection you just don't want to keep going its gets you so down what if this is me for the rest of my life I only have one kidney and all these infections are going to damage it which is just ho my right kidney failed due to all these infections since been 3 years old I have even bought sick bags ...