February up date

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So since my lost post I was on about my dad and his sever stroke my ablation surgery and just like

I have kidney stones at the moment and a kidney infection in my only kidney the pain had been just wow so bad even morphine wasn't helpful so they gave me (suppository ha ha ha already in agony let's shove something up my butt but they do help a fair bit which is what counts I go back to the urologist consultant  in April for him to tell me what I need to loose I'm really hoping I will get there and be under the weight he wants how funny would that be because I have not put a single lb on since September and almost 4 stone lighter .




My depression has been kicking my butt but I have days where I just can't see anyone and my anxiety is so up I sat the other day crying saying I don't want to do this no more I have no fight left in me just so down lately really blue  and especially with the surgery my consultant wants to do is called a mitrofanoff which is a huge operation and the other side of Glasgow I'm terrified luckily crochet helps I'm very stressed with my dad so hard with his memory loss and loss of speech forgetfulness weakness not hearing things right can't right or read and all I want to do is make him better


So exhausted and feeling blue doing lots of crochet trying to sell some items earn some pennies
Here is Derek the donut



I haven't very old school friend coming up next week so can't wait she was my first best friend we haven't seen each other in about 4 years so it's going to be awesome


I'm going to leave it there as I need to flush my catheter as last weekend Tue catheter was completely blocked and had to have and emergency change which was awful ever since my bladder is going crazy sometimes even breathing  can't make my bladder kill
  
Next blog will be about my trip and how I went xxx
Well good night guys
                           Please feel freebie message the more awareness the betterxx

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