When your body screws you

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      THE DAY MY BODY SCREWED ME



 So on Thursday the other of August 2009 I was admitted for a totally hysterectomy at 25 it was the hardest choice to do this as I have no children it was going to be done in the maternity hospital to which made it hurt so much more but I had to focus on getting some of my life back but sadly things went completely wrong






Hi lovely people.
Stephen updated but Tia’s profile page isn’t showing it, and mine hasn’t come up yet, updating here for those who are waiting for news.
Taken directly from Stephens status
“Just letting everyone know Tia Louise Castle didn't have the surgery. She went into anaphylaxis in theatre so the op was cancelled. She is currently need a lot of oxygen 


My life got turned up side down they have me all the meds and sadly I went into full blown anaphylaxis shock and it caused a sever asthma attack my lungs flooded and I had to be shocked I came round and the first thing I noticed was I had no pain at all I knew something was wrong I had to be ventilated for over 10 hours and spent 3 days on oxygen


 ( MY WRIST IS A MESS FROM THE LOVELY ARTERIAL LINE STABILISING MY BLOOD PRESSURE )

 sadly I was to unstable for surgery so it got canceled I was so scared when I woke up in ICU on a ventilator a feeding tube as they had to bag me that much my stomach swelled I am now home but god I don't want to fight no more it was so hard and its even harder now I feel so weak and that it's my fault as they mentioned stress on my body before surgery didn't help what am I ment to do  everything has now been put on hold till I have a bunch of test at the allergy clinic
 ( NOW THEY JUST LET ME TAKE CARE OF MY SPC NOW 😂😂😂 )
IM just so so tired physically exhausted mentally want to give up I can't believe what happened in so angry at my self I should be recovering now and now all I can do is cry in trying to stay positive but it's so fucking hard I don't see the point anymore
I am so greatful to all the cards and presents and all the amazing messages I have received in still very weak and have a few other problems pop and I really am going to go crazy so stressed with so many things



A lovely friend of mine set this up while I was in ICU for a holiday for me and Stephen but Stephen needs it more he dose so much for me and was amazing throight this little drama please feel free to share this so sorry I haven't been around to much I will try more im just a mess a very foggy brain and just feeling awful and stupid and like a failure and just devestated XXX I am now home but needing lots of rest so very bored and can't stop crying 
EVEN 1 WEEK LATER I LOOK WVEN WORSE DUE TO A NASTY CHEST INFECTION
https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/jess-laughton-3
IF YOU WISH TO VIEW THE JUST GIVING PAGE PLEASE JUST COPY AND PASTE  IN TO GOOGLE XXX
I just want to say a huge thank you to Jess  for setting the just giving for me and Stephen and thank you to everyone who has donated we haven't had a holiday in over 6 years due to my illness and I have some big surgeries coming and there has just been so so much stress but again thank you to every single one of you
When I woke up in ICU and Stephen told me about the just giving page and read me some of your messages It really helped to know I have so many many friends around me I have received so many cards and gifts in overwhelmed by how many great people are out there and it's so lovely to wake up to things like that especially when you have as many bad nights as I do


To everyone in Mariana's group xx
Also so many messages and cards and so much love from a group on Facebook for knitting and crochet ( Marianna's group page) they have all supported me for a long time and i couldn't have made it through some tough times without the support they give I just wanted to say thank you to you all

Love to you all talk soon xxx

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