Depression

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So with any chronic illness we all suffer with depression at some point

Me I have suffered since I was about 14 I'm now 24 and my depression goes up and down with all the pain and not sleeping and medication there is no surprise you get depression but we have to think of good things and things that make us happy .

This is what makes me happy 

 1. Having cuddles with Stephen

 2. Seeing my friends Tracy and aiden 

 3. Having cuddles with my babies ( my cats) 

 4. Going for a drive with my dad and Stephen

 5. Doing my hobbies ( crochet / knitting / colouring / scrapbooking and many more )

 I hide my depression because I find it hard to talk about I find it hard to tell someone how I'm feeling and recently I did a very big thing for me I talked to my gp about it I am now waiting for therapy which I am terrified about but I need to do it to help me cope better this is very hard for me to openly tell people but in doing it.

  Depression is nothing to be ashamed of we will all suffer with it at some point we need to not be ashamed that we some times suffer 





ITS OK TO HAVE BAD DAYS 
ITS OK TO NOT BE OK. 
ITS OK TO CRY 

A new day i

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