The waiting game and it's effects
Waiting for your appointments to come through the letter box and it's effects on your mental health.
When you have ran out of non drastic options and it's now left to the BIG SCARY LIFE ALTERING OPTIONS you pray each day you will get a letter from the hospital asking you to come see a consultant but as each day passes and nothing comes it really effects your mental health especially when your in so much pain your bed bound most days you start to think will it ever happen and will you ever get rid of the pain will things ever get better.
You get so depressed and numb with it and no one will or can help you. You want to give up so badly and you have no idea how you can carry on because this illnesses had destroyed your life you have lost your friends because you just mess everything up you can't do what you dreamed of doing with your life your stuck in one place just waiting and trying to get through a day and you just feel like you have lost everyone and everything.
Well this is how I am feeling right now but you have to do it you have to carry on and get through it no how hard it is and how much you mess up.
Waiting is so hard and I understand I'm not the only person they have to see but it didn't make it any easier the past few days IV literally sat there doing nothing feeling numb and don't know how to get out of it I just wanted to say
WAITING IS VERY HARD
All my love tubie girl
When you have ran out of non drastic options and it's now left to the BIG SCARY LIFE ALTERING OPTIONS you pray each day you will get a letter from the hospital asking you to come see a consultant but as each day passes and nothing comes it really effects your mental health especially when your in so much pain your bed bound most days you start to think will it ever happen and will you ever get rid of the pain will things ever get better.
You get so depressed and numb with it and no one will or can help you. You want to give up so badly and you have no idea how you can carry on because this illnesses had destroyed your life you have lost your friends because you just mess everything up you can't do what you dreamed of doing with your life your stuck in one place just waiting and trying to get through a day and you just feel like you have lost everyone and everything.
Well this is how I am feeling right now but you have to do it you have to carry on and get through it no how hard it is and how much you mess up.
Waiting is so hard and I understand I'm not the only person they have to see but it didn't make it any easier the past few days IV literally sat there doing nothing feeling numb and don't know how to get out of it I just wanted to say
WAITING IS VERY HARD
All my love tubie girl
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