So here's an update

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Hi guys so sorry I haven't been around there has been so much going on so here is an update for you

So since I went in for my hysterectomy last August and went in to anaphylaxana shock I haven't been coping well at all had more hospital visits and admissions
 

  
                        
 
                        


Sadly we lost my great grandma in December she was amazing taught me so much she was like a mum to me every time I was in hospital she would be there every time she came she brought ( Smarties, grapes and sunnd D ) I miss her so much she was my rock we spoke almost every day she knew what to say to me to help me get through something  difficult I am struggling so much without my Gran i still wait for her to phone and I still go to phone her I have no idea how I am going to get through all of this without her and to be honest I am not sure if I can do it without her miss you Gran  I just need someone to bring me Smarties grapes and sunny D now 😊😊😊
 

So on the 25th of April I am getting admitted for the day to have a skin test done and then they will inject me with the drug to try induce a reaction so it's safe to say I am shitting it I know they will be on hand and will act quick but didn't make it easier but once these test are done we can move forward with the hysterectomy so I'm hoping I will have it in the next few months sadly I won't be able to get my mitroffanof till next year as my hysterectomy will be a vertical incision so a longer recover

My depression has took a huge hit the last few months I am trying so hard but I just feel like I fuck every single thing up but I am trying I really am


I have lost more weight I am about a stone away from the goal the urologist set which is 70kg what upsets me is that I will still be classed as overweight I have lost around 6 and a half stone now

So the first photo was August last year and the pink top is now as you can see lost a fair amount of weight but I also look more ill less colour and exhausted I feel so yucky and discusting to be honest and that really brings me down 

So that's all I really have for now I will post again soon please share 
Love you guys xxx 
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